Life Update

Dang, it's been three years since I even thought about this blog. I'm pretty terrible at follow through and remembering my projects though, so i'm not really surprised. But I'm going on another trip and was going to record it on tumblr, and then I remembered i made this blog and figured, why not pop over and see it again? So here I am. I already copied the post from tumblr over, so I figured I'd make an update about life while I'm waiting to leave.

So it's been three years since my last post (not counting the one about going to Italy). A lot has happened in life I guess. I finished my freshman year with less than optimal grades, but it didn't matter to my scholarships at that point. Went to a summer class and did amazing. It's still probably my favorite class I've taken at Hendrix. And then I went on an archaeology dig through the school. I was the youngest person to go out of the four, and it was a great opportunity since not many freshman get to accompany teachers on trips. Those two weeks were a lot of fun and I am forever grateful because they influenced me later on in my college career. I also decided that I would switch my major over to Psychology and Neuroscience. I managed to talk my family into it, so I began sophomore year with my first ever psychology class.

Sophomore year was a lot better in a way; I had my friend from high school who joined me that year and I was going to be an RA (she moved rooms during second semester so I got to be here RA >:]). The best part about being an RA was that I got to move in early and had a room to myself (and i was getting PAID). The worst part? I was an RA. Meaning I was supposed to plan events for a "grade", most of which were failures. I had to check all of the rooms and make check in forms for them, had to go through a week of training before everything, and had to be present at floor meetings. I slept through the introductory one on accident. So yeah, being an RA was an experience. I was not doing it the next year. My grades this time around were....better. But not up to snuff. I had to make a scholarship appeal (which i got!). My depression also got really bad halfway through the year. Bad enough that I had to be put on medication and see a counselor once a week. That's still an ongoing thing too. After that, I went to a summer class thing in Costa Rica through Hendrix. I got B's in the two classes I took. I also had one of my friends from sword club there too, so I had a lot of fun and we got a lot closer! She also introduced me to Tokyo Ghoul and I will forever hate her for that because oh my lord that series is nothing but heartbreak.

Moving on to my junior year though. I think out of all of my years here, this is the one that went the best. I still haven't made th grades i wanted, but i was able to prove to myself that i could do well if i tried. A depression spell at th end of th year sort of blew it, but i'm confident in my ability to succeed. Also, i switched my major once again over the summer. I am now officially in the Anthropology department. It's actually one of the reasons i'm going to Italy! One of my professors is teaching an Anthropology course there and I wanted to take it to help catch up with my degree. My minor is also now in religious studies. Oh! And the best part of the year? I asked a boy i've had a crush on since freshman year out! I wasn't going to, but my friends convinced me that he really did have an interest in me, so i asked. Best decision of my life. We have our ups and downs, and i'm not even sure it's going to last past college, and i don't think i mind entirely. It'd be sad, because this kid is so sweet and just needs love, but i think i wouldn't mind being his friend too.

I think i'm pretty happy with my life right now. I've gotten a hold on my depression for the most part, and i think i'm pretty determined to succeed. I may even be able to pull off getting in to graduate school too. But for now, i need to take it day by day. And i think i am mostly. I'm using this trip as a way to practice breaking out of my shell and becoming more confident in myself, and hopefully, it'll work. If it doesn't, well, at least i get a month in a different place and with different people.

-H